Laura Cress<\/span>Technology reporter<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n The popular Twitch streamer QTCinderella says she would be a “happier person” if she could go back and tell her younger self to choose a different career.<\/p>\n The 31-year-old, real name Blaire (she does not make her second name public), became famous for playing video games and cooking meals in live videos for her 1.2 million followers<\/a> online.<\/p>\n In 2021 she created the annual Streamer Awards<\/a>, which will be streamed online on Saturday.<\/p>\n But she told the BBC while she felt “incredibly lucky” to be in her position, the negatives of the role – ranging from being under constant scrutiny to at times being concerned for her safety – makes it difficult to enjoy.<\/p>\n “If I could go back and never experience some of the things I’ve experienced because of this job, I do think I would be a happier person overall,” she said.<\/p>\n “The biggest thing I wish I could do, if I went back and was able to whisper in my ear, I would say, don’t do it.”<\/p>\n<\/div>\n Throughout 2025, several female content creators have spoken out about concerns of their safety, particularly when attending public events.<\/p>\n In March, three US Twitch streamers, Cinna, Valkyrae and Emiru, were taking part in a week-long marathon stream when a man threatened to kill them<\/a>.<\/p>\n Then, at the annual streamer event TwitchCon in October, a man from the crowd grabbed Emiru and tried to kiss her without her consent.<\/p>\n While her personal security were able to intervene, she accused the on-site security team<\/a> of not detaining him until hours after the event – something Twitch refuted in a statement<\/a>.<\/p>\n Harassment – or the threat of it – is an issue which Blaire says she has also had to face since her rise in popularity online.<\/p>\n “I could open my Instagram DMs right now and read you 100 horrible things about why or how I could be harmed by people,” she said.<\/p>\n In 2021, Blaire said she spent over $2,000 (\u00a31,500) every month to have heavily edited photos of her removed from the internet.<\/p>\n Then in January 2023, she discovered a deepfake website was using a likeness of her in pornographic material, alongside other popular female streamers.<\/p>\n Now, she said despite opening a craft shop in Los Angeles earlier this year, it’s rare she ever visits – because of men turning up to the shop and asking for her.<\/p>\n “I thought it’d be fun,” she said.<\/p>\n “Unfortunately, it’s gotten to the point where I can’t go there because we’ve had men show up looking for me.<\/p>\n “I don’t want it to be unsafe for my employees.”<\/p>\n<\/div>\n Blaire said she thought security at the Streamer Awards would be “aggressive” in comparison to other events, as she hopes to help the attendees from the streaming world feel as safe as possible.<\/p>\n![\"BBC](\"https:\/\/ichef.bbci.co.uk\/news\/480\/cpsprodpb\/61bd\/live\/58caa050-d1dc-11f0-9267-ab26a8fe8cc2.jpg.webp\")
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